So I'm sure you all know what I am talking about when everything in life seems to be going PERFECT,...then all of a sudden things are crappy. Well, I guess you could say I'm in that "RUT" right now. Ever since my dad's news things have seemed to not be going my way. Nothing huge...just kinda crappy.
Last night I officially got the WORST Mother of the Year award when Noah was pulling himself up on a drawer. He's pulling himself up on everything and I didn't think much of it. I was right by him, but didn't have a close enough eye on him. Before I knew it,..he had fell and gouched his head right by his eyebrow. While he was screaming I picked him up and realized blood was gushing from the wound. Of course I was freaking out screaming to Brad that we needed to go to the ER. 5 minutes later Noah was laughing, smiling, and being the cutest kid ever,...and the bleeding had stopped. But me on the other hand,...I'm STILL a wreck from it. Poor guy. I wouldn't be suprised if he has a scar from it, and it was MY fault. It was on MY clock. We put some neosporin and a bandaid on it. It looks like it's healing up. At least it's under his eyebrow,...but still! He was perfect, no scrapes, scars, nothing,...the perfect little baby he was sent down to this earth as,...until this. Yeah...I woke up every hour last night thinking about how it. I know it's not that big of a deal,..but it hurts my heart. Noah was a trooper though. I think he has forgiven me?! Sorry buddy,...I'll try to be a better mom.
Oh,...Notice NO pictures lately? That would be because my camera broke. Perfect timing huh?! Like I said,..when it rains it pours. Sorry to be so negative. I know these little things are just that,...little. And really dumb compared to some trials,....Just venting.....
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
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When it rains, it really does pour. That stinks about your dad. Sometimes life is really unfair.
ReplyDeleteIf it makes you feel any better, we are in a rut too. We are sooo ready for spring to come (and no more snow!)
I hate accidents,(Livie's had a few too many! I totally hear ya on the mom guilt. It really does break your heart.)
I'm sure Noah still loves you to pieces though! (:
I was looking at your pics, he is such a little cutie!! He has got the prettiest blue eyes!
ShellBells, Don't be so hard on yourself. You are an amazing mom. And life just happens. If we never had the bitter, we wouldn't know that the sweet was so great. So it's a good thing that we have some downs once in awhile, just know that it's going to be great again! (Just listen to me! I need to take my own advice!) Really, I love you and Noah and Brad. You are part of the sweetest things in my life. Love, Mom
ReplyDeleteI had fun today! And you really are a GREAT mom, Noah's eye is getting better already :) I will miss you guys this week.
ReplyDeleteI can totally relate to this blog!!! It seems that the bad things in life come in 3's, and then things smoothe out. Recently we had our furnace go out, my car break down, and my dryer break!!
ReplyDeleteIrritating and expensive :(
The first accident is the worst, becuase you feel so bad, he will have many more to come, Tim and I use to give each other a hard time about who Bowen was with when he would get hurt, sadly most of the time it was with me. Nothing major of course just little bumps and bruises. I hope you are feeling better about it, and I'm sure he doesn't think you are a bad mommy :) Hang in there!
Don't feel silly. I have learned that everyone has trials, whether they be big or small.
ReplyDeleteAnd sometimes it seems like the small trials can all add up to a big one.
Dang trials and crappy days!
I love what your mom wrote, so true.
When I was in Costa Rica my sister was watching Carson and James. Their dog bit Carson in the face. Mederma for children works really well.
ReplyDeleteAnd it's true, don't be too hard on yourself. The scar will get smaller and smaller the bigger he gets. :o)
Hang in there!
Shelley~ it was great hearing from you. Sounds like you are having a rough time right now. Just know that tomorrow the trial that you had today will be better (or maybe not seem as bad) and then there will be another. Life is hard as a mom. We WORRY so much... but it's worth it. Right? Cash has fallen lots and lots and it feels terrible when you see your kids hurt, but they are so tough and they forget so fast! Take care and have a better day!
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Boys! Chase has had some good goose eggs already and you cannot help, but feel bad! You are not a bad mom though...It is hard to not feel that way, but Noah loves you and knows that you are his Mom who would protect him from anything....They are just going to have those boy moments where they walk away with a battle mark for a little while! ANd look how tough they are....It is always harder for the Mommy's to recover! Hope things get better! Maybe start with a new camera! I am having picture withdraws! I love the pics on the family website though! Noah is such a cutie and is a ham! We need to get these boys together again! You guys just have to give us a call when you are in UT next time!
ReplyDeletelooks like we both had an 'accident' monday night! i know i'm not a momma, but seeing my little baby {dog} get hurt broke my heart, so i can kind of relate to how you are feeling....but it's nobody's fault...things just happen! you are too sweet, cute and fun for noah to think anything less of you.
ReplyDeletealso, sorry to hear about your dad...it's always darkest before the sun comes up, right? i hope your luck turns around soon....
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ReplyDeleteHey Shelley, Sorry things aren't going so hot. It'll get better and the blood and bumps and bruises, it's just what happends! Not that is makes you feel any better to hear that but every kid is bound to get hurt. Shoot, if you deserve the worst mommy award for that than I don't even what to know what I deserve!
ReplyDeleteAnyway, in answer to your questions, we are having a boy! We are pretty excited! I'm in the clear now! I always said I atleast wanted one of each and now I will have them! Anyway, we aren't for sure on a name yet, but we are trying to decide out of about 2 or 3. But I'm not due until the beginning of July so I guess we have a little while to decide. I hope you have some better days!
Shell well i thought i told you about the new blog but im glad you found it. also will you be this way on the 13th?
ReplyDeleteYou are so not the mean mommy. So I blog stocked you through Pulley's blog, heee heee! I will email you our invite okay.
ReplyDeleteDo not beat yourself up. At least you have not let the same kid have to go to the ER 2 years in a row for the same problem. Aubree stuck a rock up her nose one summer and then recently chewed gum, put back in the wrapper, and shoved that up her nose. They always find something to do.
ReplyDeleteYour family is so cute!!! Those pictures of Noah are adorable!!!!
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